my family and i celebrated my dad's birthday today but i don't know how old is he now. despite so, i still couldn't be bothered to ask. never mind about it, i was looking foward to enjoy the celebration 'cause it seems like it'll be the only glimmer of positive note today. that pathetic, yes i i know. we went to the Pizza Hut at Causeway Point to have dinner there. actually, it was more to a lunch but blame procrastination for the change in plans.

Causeway Point is so darn deserted when we reached there at around 5. Alright, perhaps it's not as bad as what you may think it is. but the fact is, there are far fewer shoppers there than i had initially expected. HEL-LO... this is Saturday people, i thought it will be a day to destress from your 5-day week and just take a breather by particiapating in retail theraphy and such? i could only come up with 1 possible outcome for this rare phenomenon that i faced.

the majority of the popluation is overcrowding the town area which i don't know what the hell is happening there today. i only know that there's a national beatbox competition heating up tonight at a club. but that's WAY LATE at night. maybe Singaporeans are 'choping' their places early in bars and pubs to watch the 'live' telecast of EPL soccer matches on tonight. but that will make up only a small percentage of the whole population that's 'lost' from shopping centres!

perhaps Causeway Point is getting too predictable for them, it has always been the same old shops. other 'Points' are much more attractive avenues for them to shop. what's so attractive about town anyway? it's getting dead, only liven up by the scores of many different human beings who roam the streets there. it surprises me that there are people who goes down to town EVERY WEEK! don't you guys get bored breathing the same stale air everytime?

anyway, back to the 'celebration' at Pizza Hut which was densely populated, unsurprisingly though. i was wondering why this outlet has so many teenage staffs before Yan said to me straight in my face that "it is the same everywhere."

"Oh".

this particular guy took our order and he caught my attention. he is good looking and has nice facial features that really make him stand out from the rest. but i am straight. then one female staff served us the food and i thought she will be a great catch. on first look, i was mesmerized. she's attractive. i wasn't influenced by lust, but more to her smile i suppose. but i'm tied down. Yan's sitting rriiigghhtt next to me. and i'm not disappointed. 'cause i know she's the REAL one for me.

i swear i ate the wrong dishes! no more baked rice for me! everything about it falls way below my expectations, which weren't that high anyway. urgh. i was practically forcing the food down my throat, counting on my stomach acids to digest them. 'nuff said. Pizza Hut should be considered only when... you crave for pizzas. 'cause that's what they do best. Pizza. yes, not anything else.

dad didn't get the present that we wanted to give him initially, which was a jacket. more to a sweater actually but not as thick as it is. but we did buy him 2 long sleeved shirts which my mum thought can double up as a jacket to keep my dad warm! talk about creativity here! and i did get a bottom for myself too and for that, THANKS A LOT MUM! i can spend my money on other stuffs now! yay!

i had a little chat with Yan near her place before i sent her up to her home. it was a pretty meaningful one, tracing back old memories and reminiscing the past. to add to the ambience, children were running wildly everywhere, holding lanterns in their hands and others seemingly scared of the 'firecrackers'. such innocence, i've yearned to see for such a long time. no inhibitions, just propelled by the emotions running through their minds.

but i then saw this little girl, sitting on a stool, all by herself.
she had nothing else with her, only for a file.
and where's her lantern?
it's nowhere in sight...

she look dejected, eyes filled with envy.
i thought she was from her tuition, forced to go today.
i presumed she was warned by her mum not to go out and play.
perhaps that's why she just stared at the other children,
running, playing, laughing heartily,
unconcerned by her lack of presence in the fun.

so before she goes home and tuck to sleep,
she want to at least see the joy of this 'Lantern Festival',
despite only a brief glance, i saw her eyes filled with tears,
i had mixed feelings but i knew i could do nothing.
such a pity, to be caged up in a world of fear and respect.

as i walk away from her i began to visualize,
how happy she will be if she can join in the celebration and fun,
how she will describe to her mum that it was the best time she ever had in her life,
and that she will thank her mum for giving her the chance to do so.

but it wasn't meant to be a reality,
all the can do now is to watch and see,
see the beautiful moments happen right in front of her eyes,
before she realizes that it's getting late,
and she had to wave goodbye,
hoping that the same scene will play,
in her dreams tonight.


Happy birthday dad. I wish you'll be in the pinkiest of health always and go on from strength to strength to be a much better person in life.


(yet another blogger charged for racist comments under the Sedition Act today. sad to say that he's a friend of mine, someone i know despite not being close, being tied in the arms of the law. i can't say he deserved it. i respect him for what he has in his mind. in fact, i kept an open mind about the issues that he brought up. i wasn't flamed up at all. perhaps he just brought things way too far.

blogging is about writing whatever you have in your mind that you want to talk about. that's it's main purpose. the fact that netizens can see what you write is just a secondary. that's why you've got to be responsible for what you say. that's why keeping a diary is plain retard. it's the same like talking behind people's back. you gossip and such and keep them to yourself. come on, stand up and be counted for what you say.

it's just my view and opinion. everyone's entitled to it. so don't cry foul just yet. i wonder when will i be charged. being controversial is just my style in blogging. and laws aint gonna change my ways. respect them i do, fear them i shall not!)